Current Weight: 311.70
Total Weight Loss: -4.00 Pounds
I can’t say that I’m not totally surprised. After I found out last Friday I got my new job, I went to my boyfriend’s house. We celebrated…with food.
Not that a good, totally-bad-for-you-meal isn’t warranted on special occasions, but we ate A LOT; so much, in fact, that on Saturday night, I felt really sick. Yuck.
This first week at work was also not without its downfalls (food wise). I was so nervous I was going to miss work or do something to mess up, I found myself “coping” with fast food in the morning. It was quick, caffeine was involved, and I didn’t savor it. After all, I was driving.
This led to me wanting to eat MORE.
To people who don’t have this issue with food, I know it sounds crazy.
Now, I’m going to tell you how bad this weight gain has affected me.
My Weight Gain
Usually, when I gain one week, I’m not surprised or don’t see it as a big deal (as I ALWAYS seem to find some excuse). However, I’m learning very quickly that creeping up back to 315 pounds will kill me if I keep living this way.
- The side of my legs hurt again. After I walk for ten minutes on a treadmill with no incline, the sides (facing outside, or posterior), in line with my ankle) of my legs hurt. BAD. I literally could not go any further; the pain was too much to bear.
- My knees hurt from just WALKING AROUND. If I stand for a minute or so, I feel like my knees hurt from baring so much weight. This is insane.
- My breathing is bad. I’m afraid if I keep living this way, I’ll have sleep apnea. Hell, maybe I already do.
Among all the other reasons of wanting to lose weight, these are uber important. Maybe it’s a good wake up call.
I had to cancel my psychiatric appointment. Now that I work 9-5, it’s going to be a challenge to find a psychiatrist. Luckily, I’ve found a few on Saturdays. Whew. I’m calling the office tomorrow on my lunch break. I’ll have to go from there.